Random Tales of Chaos and Joy

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Monday, September 06, 2010

So, I'm 37 now

I guess that happens when you have a birthday, you get older. I remember when I turned 35 and posted something on Facebook about having old eggs now. Fortunately for our family, one of those "old eggs" became my new daughter, even though that was the last thing I thought my eggs would be doing at the time!

In the last week or so, things have gotten more difficult. With the baby, yes..she's fussy at night, like many babies. And she LOVES to eat, like, all day. And does not like: the swing, the pacifier, rocking, stroller rides, massage, or even the front carrier for long periods. But the baby really isn't the problem. She's a blessing to our whole family. My hormones, on the other hand, have got to go. :-/ My baby behaves like a normal baby. I behave like an emotional basketcase, at least some of the time. I'm like a box of chocolates - you never know what you're gonna get.

I'm not too much of a basketcase to count my blessings, however. With all my heart, I am thankful for the friends and acquaintances who have jumped to help me and support me and our family, whether it be making a meal or listening to me vent, or just keeping me company when the days still seem so loooonnnggg. I am thankful for my older children, who have really stepped in to help out, and my husband, who, for my birthday, took Amelia during her fussy hours and let me get seven hours of uninterrupted sleep. I am thankful for Amelia, for her health, for the little moany sounds she makes when she nurses, for the way her hand stay suspended in midair when she sleeps, or rest folded across her chest, like a sweet little cherub. I'm thankful for the blessing of a wonderful, hot summer (the way I like them!), for a new car that actually works, for school starting tomorrow. :-) So in my dark hours (roughly between the hours of 5-9o'clock, if you're wondering), while I pray for mercy, I remember the verse we sang in church yesterday,

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, WITH THANKSGIVING, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. " (Phillipians 4:6,7)